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334 | TYAGARAJA KIRTANAS 



“SIGGUMALI NAVALEDARA "  (Kedára Gowla) 



Oh Rama, the best among the Trinity ! 



Nobody can roam about in the world as shamelessly 

as myself, having reposed faith in you! What you said 

before so lovingly has not yet come to pass. I have only 

known the way to waste my time in frivolities: My life has 

become an object of ridicule among people. My soul 

regretfully realises that it is my lot to lead this sort of life: 



Really, my heart is not after leading a worldly life like 

other people: I have not realised in my heart that thou art 

myself: I cannot bear the misery which the doing of 

unworthy acts brings me. My mind is being tossed about: 

Knowing that the mind can waitno more, none can roam 

about shamelessly like myself: 



Nevertheless, it is true that I cannot bring myself ever 

to accuse you; Evidently, my difficulties have not made. 



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any impression upon your mind, soft like butter or, Oh dear 

father, Ihave not yet become deserving of your grace: 

Knowing that you have not yet bestowed your grace, none 

can roam about shamelessly like myself: 



"NINNANAVLASINA" (Kalyani) 



While I am blameworthy, why should I blame you, Oh 

Father! To protect the afflicted, what other God is 

there but you, Oh dear father, the protector of thosefin 

distress ! 



Without indulging in gossip with detestable wicked 

people, had I ever panted to have your loving vision in my 

heart? Have I done humble and sincere service to the good 

and the holy every day to deserve your darsan? Instead 

of becoming fondly attached to the woman that wedded me 

with a dowry, have 1 worshipped your blessed feet in the 

lotus of my heart passionately ? Without getting enamoured 

of the flippant activities of worldly men, did I regard the 

riches as transient as apparitions in a dream and take to 

tapas? Ihave not listened to and profited by your stories 

which have the effect of dispelling all sins, nor have I been 

able to propitiate the deities presiding over riches and 



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learning; 1 do not know what the effect of my previous 

Karma is- 



As for you, you have the reputation of unfailingly 

protecting Devas and holy men of the earth: 





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“NOAREMI SRI RAMA (Varali) 



How can one like me who am a constant sinner, have 

the cheek to blame you ? 



Myself being unable to control the six inward enemies, 

and grinning at women and consequently being devoid of 

true devotion, how can 1 blame others at all ? 




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"MIVALLA GUNADOSHA" (Kapi) 



Merits and blemishes are of my own making and not of 



"DARSANAMU SÉYA" (Narayana Gowla) 


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"QATTIGANU NANU GHAI” (Begada) 

When will that day come, when you will hold me by 

the hand firmly and tell me why I have been behaving like 

this, since my birth; why I have been gloating with pride 



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that greatness is my monopoly, with my head reeling with 

haughtiness and tongue indulging in indecent talk; why | 

have been hanging upon worthless aristocrats who are 

devoid of understanding and only desire flattery; why I 

have been running after rich men who, without any discri- 

mination; treat great and good men and low servants alike 

and give their gifts, who bestow no thought on the higher 

world, but worship people who have only wealth and 

haughtiness to their credit; and advise me not to approach 

and beg of the ignorant and the wealth-infatuated persons, 

who, while worshipping Siva and Madhava, pride them- 



selves that they have no equals in the world: 

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" NICHITTAMU NISCHALAMU " (Dhanyási 

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? PAHI KALYANA SUNDARA " (Punn&gavarali) 



Oh auspicious and beautiful Rama! Pray, protect me: 

I am not learned and have not the capacity to know what 

is wise. Not having had the mind to do Bhajana, I have 

hitherto wandered vainly. I have till now waited at the 

doors of the rich, day after day, to earn my sustenance. 1 

have failed to devote to vous blessed feet the love and 

affection which I had bestowed on my wife and children: 

R egarding the trivial pleasure of Samsara as permanent, I 

have neglected to realise the worth of your holy name. 

Unable to discard sense-enjoyments, I have run mad after 

them and got deceived. Oh my beloved father! I have 

already said that I have taken refuge in you: Oh 

Raghuvira! Do bless me. I have reposed my entire faith in 



you Though I am fully cognisant of having committed 



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incalculable wrongs, I still have the temerity to ask you 

what fault! have committed that you should hesitate to 

come to me. Prosperity is only his who has faith in you: 

The worship of your holy feet is invaluable: Is it fair for 



you to deny me your mercy ? Oh the refuge of the 



Universe ! 


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DAINYA, DAINYOKTI 

(Plaintive pleading) 



? SARIVARILONA " (Bhinna Shadja) 



Have I not been sufficiently ridiculed among my 

compeers ? Does the worship offered to you in other 



houses (without genuine faith) satisfy you (as against my 



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devout worship)? Is it fair on your part passively to be 



seeing me agonised in the midst of wild prattlers ? Have 



you not relieved really pious souls of their miseries ? 





" PARAKU JESINA” (ujahuli) 

Oh! the Highest! What did you gain by being indiffe- 

rent to me? Have I not cheerfully stuck to your blessed 



feet as my only refuge? I am helpless without any prop 

Oh merciful lord ! 




? CHERA RAVADEMIRA"  (Ritigowla) 



How is it that you do not come to me? This is not 

proper. When, as an orphaned girl clings to her husband 

as her sole refuge, I entirely rely on you andimplore you 

several times ; should you not deign to protect me ? Should 

you be looking indifferently at my meditating on your, 



benign face and pining ? ` 



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? MANASULONI MARMAMU (Hindólam) 



Get to know the desire in my heart. I have no other 

refuge except you: It is not much to your credit that you, 

as the Loving Lord, blessed many devotees in the past; 

now, take me in your hand with compassion. 





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“SRI RAGHUVARA" (Bhairavi) 



Why this indifference which is quite foreign to your 

race? Why should you not bless me soon? Why this 



disputation ? 



Why should you not understand my heart's desire and 

forgive me? Why should you not take me by the hand for 

protection and speak to me lovingly ? Know this quickly. 


"OH RANGASAYI" (Kambhoji) 



Oh Rangas&yi! When I implore, why should you not 



come ? 

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" EVARIMATA " (Kambhój) 



To whose words have you listened ? Won't you come ? 



Or, is it that you are not here ? Well ! 



Though I have been brought up in the Vedic and 

Sastraic traditions, I have not been able to unravel this 



mystery: 



I have been relying on the significant declaration, that 

you are ever In the service of devotees, made by great 

Bhaktas, who have had direct vision of you: I have been 

feeling happy that you are the all-powerful supreme Lord: 



I have been regarding’ you as one of Satvic mind and 

truthful. 


ENTA VEDUKONTU (Saraswati Manohari) 



Oh! Raghava! How long shall I have to pray to you 

to come to me? Why this obstinacy and delay in relieving 

me of my mental trouble and coming to me? You are the 



inner soul. 



Believing with joy that the greatest happiness consists 

in seeing you in one's heart, I have reposed my faith 



entirely in you: 



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RTS - ?????? dem - ?????? 

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MUNUPE TELIYARA (Bang&la) 



Did it not strike you before? Would you not show your 

grace? Though you know me to be resourceless, you see 

me tossed about and enjoy the fun. Did you not once before 

feel pleased with my good conduct and lavish your grace 

on me? Dit it not strike you previously that my mind would 

now be in such a plight? 



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ENDUKI CHALAMU (Sankaribharanam) 



Why are you cross? To whom am I to appeal? Which 

lady dissuaded you? Did Kaulsalyà say anything ? Or, are 

you yourself not willing? Did Ahaly&, beautiful. Sita, 

Sabari or young Swayamprabhà say anything against me? 

Could you not patronise me ? Where has your forbearance 



gone? It is nol possible for me to bear this any longer. 



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MUNUPE TELIYARA (Bang&la) 



Did it not strike you before? Would you not show your 

grace? Though you know me to be resourceless, you see 

me tossed about and enjoy the fun. Did you not once before 

feel pleased with my good conduct and lavish your grace 

on me? Dit it not strike you previously that my mind would 

now be in such a plight? 



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ENDUKI CHALAMU (Sankaribharanam) 



Why are you cross? To whom am I to appeal? Which 

lady dissuaded you? Did Kaulsalyà say anything ? Or, are 

you yourself not willing? Did Ahaly&, beautiful. Sita, 

Sabari or young Swayamprabhà say anything against me? 

Could you not patronise me ? Where has your forbearance 



gone? It is nol possible for me to bear this any longer. 






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“ IVARAKU JÜCHINATI" (Sankar&bharanam) 



Is not what you have so long witnessed enough? 

Should you continue to be so? Is there any sin which 

cannot be destroyed by your all purifying power? Without 

worshipping your lotus feet, I have through greed become 

more and more entangled in the bondage of samsára and 



have been unable to bear the consequent distress. 



Unable to stand the torments caused by envious people 

who have no fear of the other world, I have taken refuge in 

your holy feet; Who is there for me except yourself? 



Taking you to be my only saviour, I have been submitting 

my plaintive prayers to you: 





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" KARUNA SAMUDRA” (Devagandhari) 



Oh Ocean of Mercy! Oh Allayer of the troubles of . 

devotees taking refuge in you! Protect me. 1 my sins are 

to remain with me, what is the use of your title ? I do not 

know which sinner's curse is my lot to bear. Why all this 

hesitation ? 


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“OH RAJIVAKSHA " (Arabhi) 



Oh lotus-eyed one! Why this indifference towards 

me? Am I separate from you? An innocent one like my- 

self is subject to accusations, and there is nobody to plead 

on his behalf to you: Have I not surrendered myself to 

you, Sri Rama, believing the words of good people that 

you are surely the refuge and prompt protector of those 

who pray to you with love? I had plunged limitlessly into 

worldliness, losing my sense and have consequently 

become incapacitated to sing your praise ; I have implored 

you as my sole refuge and have placed my entire faith in 

you Have I ever forgotten you? Pray, won't you bless 

me with your grace ? 


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" MUNNU RÁVANA" (Todi) 



When of yore Vibhishana, unable to bear the torments 

of his brother, Ravana, appealed to you, you overlooked the 

fact that he was the brother of your enemy and expatiated 

upon the noble traits of your family: Have you forgotten 

it now ? 



When of yore, Sugriva, unable to put up with the 

harassments of Vali, praised you, taking compassion on 

his pitiable condition you removed his despondency and 

cheered him up: 



Again, when of yore, Prahlada, unable to bear the 

tortures of Hiranyakasyapa cried 'Murahara 1* you, with love, 

removed his distress and conferred bliss on him: 



I have heard of all such glories of yours in the past. 

Pray, now protect me and remove my troubles: 





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" RAMA KODANDA RAMA PAHI“ (Kharahara Priyà) 



Oh Rama! Bless me; While you enjoy the puppet- 

play of the world, can't you speak one sweet word ? Why 

this indifference to show me your young face? I have 

longed for you and pined for you: 1 never knew that you, 

though seeing my condition, would not come to me 

promptly: Till now, I have been in profound love with you: 

Ido not know by: what ignorant folk I have been cursed ; 

or could it be that you consider me unworthy of being 

taken in hand and drawn to your bosom? 1 have trained 

myself not to be enamoured by the world, and have fixed 

my faith in you. Pray, appear before me and bless me: 





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"MAPALA VELASI" (Asávéri) 



Why don't you come and protect me now when you 

have in your hand the power to bless one with full devotion 

to your holy feet and save him ? 



It is no hard task for you to redeem me from my piteous 



condition. Oh ocean of mercy! How could I do my work 



in the midst of the distress of the sinning people ? Why 

this indifference to come to my succour in spite of the fact 

that, in joy as will as in an injured feeling, I have made 

myself an humble servant of your servants. My mind is 



restless. My way is not always visible tome: I know no 

other refuge than Thyself; 


Oh my precious wealth! 



" INNALLU NANNELI " 


Why play the farce now, 



having protected me all this time ? Having seen the pitiable 



condition of à boy like me, 



having counselled to me 



patience with encouraging words, having sported with me 



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to remove my depression and having cheered me all along 

with loving side-glances taking account of my (desponding) 

nature, where have you gone now, You who gave me the 

promise to be with me always ? 


If you are devoted to truth and keep to your word, you 

must take me under your protection along with others. 1 

have not made my prayers in a casual or superficial way: I 

have always regarded you as my peerless companion, Oh 

Friend in distress who fails not his word ! 


It is not fair that you should appear to me in different 

guises once as a protector, Once as an annoyer and again 

as a passive on-looker. 


Oh the blemishless one! Have yóu not even a 

particle of mercy on me ? | 



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"INKA YOCHANA  AITÉ" (Ghanta) 



If you, Ocean of Grace, still hesitate what can Ido ? It 

has become an endless struggle, and my body has given 

way and got reduced to half: What offence have I committed 

to deserve it ? I am not able to bear this torment and am 

tired of the countless effects of the three afflictions ; all my 

sins have taken a human form to harass me. 



If one, who has placed his entire trust in you, is left to 

suffer like this, it is well done indeed! 


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^ NIDAYA RADA“ (Vasanta Bhairavi) 



Won't you allow your grace to flow tome ? Who has 

the right to say that you should not ? Knowing, as you do, 

for a long time that there is nobody else to protect me, 

why do you tarry like this ? While Iam praying to you as 

the Supreme Lord of the Universe and offering you worship, 

will it in any way detract from your glory, if you accept it 

and forgive me ? My mind has been upset: Is this proper ? 


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 RARA NANNELUKORA ” (Sowrashtram) 



Come freely and bless me. Why do you tarry? Clasp 

me regardless of my faults. You are the fulfiller of desires. 

Is it fair on your part to subject me to troubles ? 



To one wandering like me in the wilderness of Sam- 

sara, your holy name is the sole means of redemption: 

Protect me; Oh you granter of desires! 



Knowing my plight, why tarry ? 



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